Belgium Film Workshop at Abandoned Warehouse | Film and Friends | Fine Art Film Photographer | Traveling Film Photographer

I don’t think words can accurately describe the amount of gratitude I have for @ryanmuirhead & @micmojoand the experience I’ve had in Belgium at @filmandfriends
It was truly that - FILM AND FRIENDS.
It’s was an amazing experience with amazing people. There was no fluff. No fake couples. No pressure to create something great. It felt like true freedom to just sit back and observe. To be a sponge for the first time since I first picked up a camera. To break down all of the beliefs of what I thought would make my photos better, prettier or more meaningful. It forced me to really think about what I want my work to look and more importantly feel like. I’ve been in such a rut. Creating work that is beautiful but I began to feel a disconnect to. To be brutally honest and raw that’s a feeling I struggle with often with my work. Seeing a beautiful image but knowing that the story behind it is - I was stressed by a timeline and forced to create quickly. This experience reminded me that I’m that photographer who needs time. I don’t make my best work under immense pressure and constraints and fuck that feels incredibly scary to say out loud. Especially on a platform where clients can see. But it’s true and I need to remember what makes me happiest, emotional and fulfilled to shoot. Photography is personal to me. I sometimes envy those who can separate the two and strictly think of it as a business. But that’s just not who I am and it’s not why I started and it sure as hell isn’t what keeps me going. I had given up on workshops years ago but my gut feeling told me “book the trip”. I’m feeling pretty good about pushing myself to make it there. Even if it meant traveling solo to Europe for the first time and being terrified to do so.
Workshop: @filmandfriends
Location: @noenoeantwerp @made.estate